From Fire Instructor to Body Language Coach & Trainer
Even as a socially awkward introvert, I'd always dreamed of teaching at the fire college and in June of 2016, I proudly joined the instructional team. In December 2017 I left that dream job to head in a different direction. It was a short tenure but rich in life lessons both personally and professionally, and it led to my next career move. With the skills I'd developed as an instructor, along with my passion for personal development, it became my mission to take what I'd learned and use it to help others. Becoming a certified Body Language and Nonverbal Communication Trainer helped me uncover my hidden authentic self that had been buried under years of insecurity and self doubt.
Growing Up Shy and Insecure
Much of my life experience centred around a lack of confidence and an underlying feeling of being uncomfortable in my own skin. Traumatic childhood events caused me to go within at a young age, far beyond just being shy. I approached life from a place of fear and anxiousness about almost everything. Very little came easily to me. I battled feelings of not measuring up and I felt that there was something deeply flawed and unfixable about me.
Anxiety in particular cost me every awesome job I've ever had. Each time I reached a career highlight, my self doubt kicked in and derailed my momentum. I didn't understand that it was anxiety at the time though. To make matters worse, depression always seemed to settle in after anxiety had knocked me off my perch and caused never ending struggles in my personal relationships.
A breakdown three weeks after my second marriage resulted in a diagnosis from a psychiatrist of generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, PTSD and PMDD. I was relieved to finally have evidence that it wasn't "just me" and there was a reason behind it all. Now it was a question of how to get myself better.
Healing is an ongoing adventure and I'm okay with that. It's a beautiful unfolding. The more we're willing to do the awful, messy, painful, courageous work of facing our demons and deconstructing the perceptions we've been holding onto about ourselves, the more we're able to open up to the beauty within us and in everything around us.
It took a lot of therapy sessions (CBT rocks), going on and off of medications, and a supportive network of a small handful of people that love me to help get me here. Mostly though, it was me. I never gave up. I'm my own biggest fan.
What I've Learned
I've gotten to a place in life where I'm able to see the beauty in everything and so can you. I didn't stop until I uncovered the truth within me and I know that your truth with literally set you free as well. No more insecurity - alignment is my new default!
You Are Amazing
I know without a doubt in my mind that you (yes, YOU reading these words on this webpage at this place and time in the universe) are ready to uncover the real you - to get back to your truth. I know that inside of you lies long-buried hopes, dreams and yearnings for a fuller, happier, healthier life or you wouldn't be here now.
It's been a long, strange trip for me to get to where I am now but there's nowhere I'd rather be. I draw inspiration and experience from all aspects of my life from firefighting to meditating to mental health challenges. Everything I've gone through has shaped me into the person I am today and I'm thankful for every moment of it because it has given me the ability and opportunity to connect with people like you.
You have a beautiful gift inside you that only you can bring to the world.
Let me help you uncover it.